We did not ask permission to be born.

We arrived as a wild, earth-bound “Muchness,” pulsing with a natural sovereignty that didn’t know the word “No.” But almost the moment we landed, the world began to hand us a different script. We were taught to lay aside our True Identity and trade our internal compass for a life based on waiting—waiting for the green light, waiting for the grade, the invitation, proposal or space to be given. We were waiting for the “Yes” from someone we perceived as having more power than us.

We traded our Earthen Vessel for a Survival Fortress, and we’ve been sitting in the dark ever since, holding a blank permission slip and wondering why the gate won’t open.

The Frequency of the Missed Portal

In May of 2018, long before I knew I would call the mountains of Asheville home, I sat in a crowded room at the Grove Park Inn waiting to see Abraham-Esther Hicks. For those who know her work, she describes a process of “fine-tuning” your frequency to match the “Vortex.”

When she channels, the atmosphere shifts. It’s a palpable, weighted silence. I recognized that frequency instantly. It was the same shimmer I’d felt during worship in church, and it was the same ‘Cosmic Perspective’ I had experienced during my NDE in 1991. It is the frequency of unconcealed truth—the kind that hits you in the marrow of your bones.

Esther does something specific when she channels in person: she scans the room and points. “Yes, you,” she says.

There is no name called. There is only a frequency directed at a heart. You have to know it is you. You have to claim the pointer.

She pointed at me.

I felt the hit. I knew the “Yes” was mine. But in that split second, I doubted. I doubted. I said aloud, “Did she call me?”  I looked for an external confirmation that wasn’t there. Because I didn’t move, the man behind me stood up and took the portal that was meant for me.

Driving home, my friend Amber turned to me and said what my soul already knew: “You know it was you.”

“The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don’t have any.” — Alice Walker

The Twinship: Courage and Vulnerability

That “missed chance” wasn’t a failure; it was a masterclass in the Twinship of Sovereignty.

To step into that portal requires Courage (the 200 MHz leap). It is the “Metallic” strength to stand up when the world is watching. But that courage is impossible without its twin: Vulnerability. You have to be open enough to feel the pointer, and soft enough to admit that you want the answer. This was a learning moment that has stayed with me fermenting wisdom, courage and vulnerability to practice standing, so the next opportunity isn’t missed.

When we wait for permission, we are trying to bypass the vulnerability of being “wrong.” We want a guarantee before we stand up. But in the Wild Womb of self-birthing, there are no guarantees—there is only Resonance; knowing and responding.  This is the responsibility required to owning your own soul and showing up more fully in your life.

Owning Your Soul

The Sovereign Soul Container is an invitation to stop looking at the stage and start looking at the pointer within.

The “Original Rupture” taught us that it wasn’t safe to be seen. It taught us to “leak” our power to the gatekeepers. But as we move through this journey, we are sealing those leaks. We are building a dynamic rapport of trust with our own Vessel—our Head, our Heart, and our Gut.

When you build that trust, you no longer need Esther, or a boss, or a partner to say, “Yes, you.” You look at your own reflection, you feel the “Puhpowee” of your own growth rising in the dark, and you grant yourself the permission that was yours from the moment you were born.

The portal is open. The frequency is humming. Will you stand up? 

If you feel the ‘pointer’ hitting you in the marrow of your bones right now, you don’t have to walk the path of reclamation alone. I am birthing the Sovereign Soul Container (SSC)—a sacred, collaborative space designed to help you seal your energetic leaks, trust your internal voices, and inhabit your True Earth-bound Identity.

This isn’t about me teaching you; it’s about us remembering how to be Home together. If your heart is whispering ‘Yes,’ I invite you to add your name to our growing circle. Let’s enter the wild womb of what’s next, side-by-side. There are only 3 space open for this potent pilot program. Raise Your Hand if you are interested.

Raise Your Hand